Before life so rudely interrupted my flow, I was the woman who had every ball up in the air and I was juggling them near flawlessly. I was working 60 hours a week in the ER, I was starting a wellness/coaching business and had my first few clients, I had my side stream of income from network marketing, I was growing my blog about health and wellness, I was exercising 6 days a week, I was still somehow balancing the needs of my husband, kids and prayer life and then suddenly, without any warning, life was interrupted and every ball came crashing down.
Not to go through every boring detail of what happened with my health three months ago that spurred this life interruption, but to sum it up: I had a neurological problem that went from me feeling dizzy to a few days later affecting my speech, vision, movement on the right side of my body, balance and breathing. To go from truly feeling like I was on top of the world to this brush with mortality and becoming completely dependent on others has been the most difficulty journey of my life.
With any major life interruption, the place you fall to can either catapult you into something bigger and more amazing than you ever anticipated or the place you land can endlessly slide you down hill dragging down with you bitterness, desperation, anger and despair. To be more cliche, you can be made better or bitter, you can choose to make lemonade out of lemons. I choose to catapult to spring me weightlessly to the next adventure.
As a Catholic, some of my Saintly Heroes are people that jumped on the catapult after their lives were interrupted. For example, Saint Ignatius Loyola, the founder of the Society of Jesus (Jesuits), had his life interrupted when he had a devastating injury that ended his military career that sprung him into his religious conversion, becoming the founder of the Jesuits which now has out reach in 112 countries and 27 universities in the United States (Including my alma mater Gonzaga University). Clearly God can take life’s interruptions and mold it into making you into the best version of yourself that you never even imagined.
I started to ask myself, if God could use a life interruption and devastating injury for Saint Ignatius Loyola that catapulted him to start the Society of Jesus, how could God catapult me to do something greater with my life after my devastating illness.
My life interruption, also made me take a deeper look at what matters most to me. In the frailty of my humanity, what mattered most was my relationship with my family, friends and God. Finding the next whole food plant based recipe, exercise routine or supplement for weight loss took a back seat to what were truly the most important things in my life. The seven wonderful gifts of my children needed a mom more than I needed to blog about things that really just weren't that important at the end of the day.
So where am I landing from this catapult? I'm not sure where I will eventually land, but I do know it will start with redefining my priorities and goals. After thinking and dreaming about my goals using Rachel Hollis' Start Today journal, I decided to change what I write about and spend my energy, time and passion creating. Therefore, I took down my original website and blog and I am recreating it as Raising Seven. Because at the end of the day, I would be more proud to raise the best seven humans I can, be the best mom/wife/friend/daughter/Catholic I can be and to share my experiences to uplift and motivate others.
Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam